I am far too tired. I’m sick of spending my life doing things for other people, of making my decisions based on how others will want me to.
I have made way too many mistakes for you. We will still talk, but I hope you understand that I am, from now on, taking your advice and making myself happy. I don’t think that you realized that you are one of those people in my life I cannot live without, and one of those people I try to please. The truth of this situation isn’t black, nor white, nor gray. It’s hardly simple, and I don’t know if this will affect how our friendship functions. But I am thinking, and I am thinking that I need to be happy. Not happy for you. Not smiling for you. But smiling because smiling feels right, because smiling is how I truly feel in my stomach.
So I will make this decision all by myself. And I hope you understand. I really want you to see the good in this situation. I wish you could understand that I will be happier. I need you to understand. I still need you, and I always will. Please don’t be upset.
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