Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Changed

Do you ever have a feeling in your stomach where you feel like you’ve just realized something about yourself? Except you don’t know quite exactly what it is, but something is definitely there, something should definitely be noticed. In the pit of your stomach, you feel a nervous excitement and you knit your eyebrows in a sort of way that suggests a vague acknowledgement of something different within your soul and body and mind. It’s so strange. And it just happened to me. Perhaps this feeling is a result of the music I’m listening to, or the conversations I’m holding. Either way, it was real. And now I’m stuck inside my head, searching for a change, for a shift or tweak in my thoughts. I can’t find anything, but my stomach is stuck in this weird state and the confusion won’t leave and the thoughts aren’t flowing while my fingers are typing about absolutely nothing.

How unusual this night has turned out to be.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

I know exactly exactly what you mean, and thank God for Doug. I want you to meet him. he makes everything make sense somehow. I love you so much. and I love the opening word graphic thing or whatever you call that. Youre the best.

Beware ;

I'm not afraid to ask stupid questions,
I love flowers,
I get left out sometimes,
I sing all day,
I'm afraid of losing my memory,
I create new identities for myself,
I'm a straight edge,
I cut up magazines,
I love doing crafts,
I like big teddy bears,
I invented the Mutual Palm Tickle with Morgan,
I try to see the beauty in everything,
I need acoustic songs,
I don't wear expensive clothes,
I like rainy days,
I'm freaked by fish and toes,
I don't wear lots of makeup,
I never make my bed,
I laugh really easily,
I love nail polish,
I change my mind a lot,
I don't take myself very seriously,
I like buttons,
I live by quotes,
I love France, and everything french,
I always say sorry when it's not my fault,
I live in the country,
I don't care if you're popular by their standards,
I brush my teeth for a long time,
You will have to live with the fact that