Hopeless Hopeful in the Hall

All she does is walk around
With her little chin held high,
Although she’ll never admit it,
Her life is all a lie.

She’s a full time sell out,
And it’s sad because she knows,
She’s told herself all that matters is
You, appearance, and clothes.

Dresses her double zero hips
In clothes with a reputation,
Trying to get one for herself,
Trying to master the art of flirtation.

Spends her weekends at big parties
Because that’s where you get seen.
Little does she know, she’s headed for
A lifetime’s peak at a small sixteen.

The pot, the pills, the everything’s:
“Please, just one more drink!”
Too busy sending the boys a wink,
Can’t comprehend how fast she’ll sink.

She puts on her perfect act,
But her smile isn’t all that’s fake,
When all she craves is your approval,
She’ll do whatever it takes.

A New Side

Prepare for a brand new tomorrow,
Prepare for a brand new me.

This Is Me (A Rant)

You’re truly poison.
I’ve thought about it,
And I’ve come to a final conclusion,
And you’re truly poison.

You creep into my day.
(As if I even want you there.)
You make nests in the corners of my mind,
And pretty soon, I want you there.

I want this to stop.
I want you to go away.
But I can’t stop and walk away.
Be a gentleman, please?

It makes me mad how mad you make me,
How your words mean more than everyone else’s.
You really make me mad.
You really mean a lot to me.

This is what I sound like when I scream.
This is what I feel like when I’m upset.
This is me when you’re in my brain.
This is me when no one’s looking.

How are you?
When I look at you,
Who am I seeing?

Am I seeing what you look like
When I’m on your mind?
Am I seeing what you look like
When you hold back your words?

Am I seeing what you look like
When you fake a smile?
Have I ever seen what you look like
When you’re being honest?

I cannot handle personal happiness.
And it leaves me baffled.
I often find myself wondering and confused.
I often find you embedded in these thoughts.

Do you feel guilty
That you’re tainting my life?
Or is the affect you have on me
Making you happy?

I wish you’d tell me why you’re doing this to me.
I wish I wouldn’t let you do this to me.
Why do you have such power over me?
Tell me why.

What Girls Do When The Wind Steals Their Identity

Lonely and afraid,
Walking through the empty streets
Looking for herself.

Problems (Used To Know)

Blaming my problems on everyone else,
Telling everyone else I’m
Blaming my problems on my lack of sleep.

Will they ever
Wake up to see
I’m sleeping fine?

Can’t turn your head
For more than five seconds
To ask what’s wrong
Before his lips
Become too irresistible?

You sicken me.
You might want to turn your head
Again
Before I throw up all over you.

He calls you baby
And buys you dinner
And it makes you smile
Because someone’s finally
Paying attention.

The more attention you get,
The less attention you give.
You’re oblivious to the world around you.
You’re oblivious to everyone’s sorrow.
You’re oblivious to your own.

You’ve changed.
I miss the girl who now hides behind
American Eagle and alcohol.
I miss the girl from
My picture albums on the beach.
I miss the girl
I used to know.

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